Oh i’m so tired, i need to get off here because the anons are winding me up tonight and i’m letting it get to me then snapping. I need to have a glass of water and go to bed. I feel stressed. The first time i ever slept with anyone, i slept with this guy…we won’t name names. It wasn’t how i’d hoped it would be, and a lot of people got hurt. There was so much drama surrounding it, and it took me 9 months to ever sleep with someone again …the first experience just put me off so much and i do regret it even today. But everything happens for a reason, i still find it hard to see what that reason was though…no one benefited. I felt let down, stupid and just sad afterwards, and i didn’t intend to speak to him ever again. Then last night whilst i was out some random guy caught my arm in the crowd and was like, can i speak to you just for one minute? I was hesitant and was about to turn away, then he said ‘do you know *insert name here*’ and named the name of the guy i lost my virginity to. Obviously that grabbed my attention, and i said yeah i did know him. Then he replied that he was here, and he wanted to speak to me. I was obviously shocked, but i went with him even though my friends were pulling me to go to the other room, i just wanted to hear him out after all that time.
He brought me into a VIP part of the club, like a smaller quieter room and one of my friends sat in the corner…then i walked in and saw him…didn;t even smile just said hi. Then basically said i don’t know why i’m even giving you my time after the way you treated me, i never intended to speak to you ever again. He just began apologising loads…said he’d changed and matured etc.
It doesn’t really matter to me if he has, i’m sure he knew i was done there anyway. Maybe he has matured, if he has then that’s good…no other girl will get treated how i did. It was just interesting…how you always bump into people from the past at some point. Do you know what i mean? It’s weird